I never stopped drawing the Teen Heroes, but my production of artwork slowed down after 10th grade. I didn't really know what to do with them, or how to move on. It got to the point that I'd draw once every few months. I used to draw every few days. For about a year, I didn't think about the Teen Heroes much. I also don't remember much of what happened in my high school years, especially 10th grade. I actually don't remember much until late 11th grade.
I was 16 and starving for the spotlight. Theatre alone wasn't enough to feed my hunger. I wanted to be an entertainer, but didn't know if I had it in me. I was full of doubt, had no confidence, but I was too hungry.
I would eat lunch inside one of the teacher's classrooms (I hate outdoors). She hosted a club called, "Friend's of Rachel." Because I ate lunch in the classroom, I participated in the club. The club was hosting the high school's annual talent show, and I was to help organize the event. I was one of the audition judges. The judges decided who was talented enough to participate in the show. Before the second round of auditions, I felt a little sad. I realized I wanted to be part of the show. After the auditions I asked the club president if I could audition. She didn't let me. She said that because I had judged the auditions from week, there would be conflict of interest, but I was determined.
I sent the club president a recording of me singing Kesha's "Tik Tok." The day after, the club president said I was able to perform after all the performers had performed, while the judges picked a winner.
I spent about three weeks preparing a dance routine to "Tik Tok." I'm not a dancer, and I had never had a dance class. Me coming up with choreography was a miracle.
The day of the performance I was nervous. I had never done anything like that before, but I was ready. As I stepped on stage, my personality completely changed. I was no longer the person I had been for the past 16 years; I was somebody new. I didn't know who I was yet, but I wasn't "me" anymore.
I performed Kesha's Tik Tok. It was all over in a blink of an eye for me. When my performance ended, the crowd cheered for me. They cheered louder than they did for anybody else that night. I was so happy; the high lasted for a week. I knew I wanted that feeling again. That night only started a chain reaction.