During the summer of 2010, I wrote about three songs. I only liked two, and one of them had no lyrics. 11th grade started, and I was still hung up on that first song I wrote. I decided I was finally going to write lyrics for it.
All I could think about during this time was how much I wanted to be a part of Hollywood. Because that's all I could think about, I decided that's what my song was going to be about. My song would be about a superficial place, a place where you're only on magazine covers if your hot, a place where a kiss is worth more than your soul, a place with eating disorders, a place with drugs, but despite all the negative, I still wanted the fantasy that place had to offer. I wanted to be a part of that fantasy world.
As I wrote my song, I ran out of things to say. I guess I'm a bit shallow? I like to think I'm not, but I couldn't go deep and personal. My lack of acceptance for everything I was wasn't letting me write a personal song. I needed a new plan.
I decided I would do what I did when I wrote my first poem; create a scenario, and write it. I needed a character for my song, and thought about the Teen Heroes. For so long the Teen Heroes were a bunch of teenage crime fighters with not much going on, and that needed to change. The fantasy world I described in my song became the Teen Heroes’ new home. All I needed was a story.
The Teen Heroes focused heavily on the twins. If I was going to write a song about me, the twins couldn't be the main focus. Phoenix had to be the focus, because Phoenix was me. I just had one question, "Who is Phoenix?" Although Phoenix had my personality, he didn't have my life, he didn't have my looks, he didn't live in my world. Phoenix couldn't possibly be me, not 100% I decided Phoenix was going to be a metaphor for my life, and he would represent what I wanted. I wanted fame and fortune, so Phoenix had to be a king. The problem was that, I didn’t have fame and fortune, so Phoenix had to obtain it. I decided Phoenix would be a defeated king who wanted his crown back. That's when I created Shadow King- the demon that kidnapped Phoenix, and knocked him of his throne. It all started very simple, but quickly became complex. I also realized something; Phoenix was the person I had become on stage, when I performed.
Phoenix was already living inside of me; I just couldn't identify him before. Once I did, I named this new identity, and King Blandon was born. I was King Blandon; Phoenix was King Blandon. King Blandon was the entity both Phoenix and I had in common. I was then able to write, “Fantasyland,” the song about a king fantasizing about a way back onto his throne. Fantasyland became King Blandon's kingdom, and the destruction of the Teen Heroes.